It is getting colder. Trees lost their
leaves. Few sunny glitches still hit the ground, although they are
not warm at all. Every morning , coffee comfort me in one way or the
other. It does help me to wake up and i love it, when the heat from
its hard covered paper glass transfers into my palm, making me ignore
the fact that it is cold outside. Summer said goodbye , i am already
missing it. Few hard experiences this summer did make me sad, but it
didnot let me down. I don't even want to remember what happend or it
is worthy to be remembered. We remember only those people and events
which are meaningful to our life. Those selfish events and people who
look at the other materialistically and for their own benifit are
like blood sucking leeches ,better to be forgotten. They can go look
for happiness everywhere but they always forget the fact that
happiness is all inside their puzzled brain, which is sadly missing.
Well after being ignored and left
alone for a long time, i did manage to get up. It was not easy but it
was definetly not impossible. I began seeing smile in people's faces
after a long time.I was just like a Vampire, after hundred of years
of blood sucking misery, finally being able to face the light. We
human are so busy with this so called daily life, that we have
forgotten the meaning of smile. It is actually effectiver than any
medicine in the world. Smile is the joy of being alive. I don't
regret even a single day of my life, although it had been more of a
rollercoaster ride, with lots of ups ,downs, and rounds.
It suddenly happend one day , without
any expection, my heart began smiling without any reason.I saw colors
everywhere.It was colorful. Those green- blue colors, deeper than the
sea , purer than evening sky. I couldnot even look at it because i
was afraid my jealousy would ruin its beauty. I always thought that
such beauty was only possible in romantic novels or some famous
poet's poem. But i was wrong. It was right infront of me. Those
silence moments gave me a whole new perspective how i looked at this
world. Without saying anything, it told me everything. I found peace.
Those glittering white light struck my eyes. It hugged me without
even hugging me. I was falling down into the spongy clouds. I could
see myself falling but i never felt any better. I wanted to leave
this world for a while. I just wanted to keep on falling. It was like
a dream where you never want to wake up . I was nervous. My mind was
out of my mind, my mouth had lost it's water. I kept on talking. It
didnot say anything, just listened to me silently and smiled right
back on me. It was mysterious than mystery itself. Let those millions
of Aurther Conan Doyles try writing mystery books,I do not think
anything could be more mysterious than this.
We human are greedy. We fought many
battles throughout our era. We fought it for our never ending needs.
We always want more than we need and even after achieving it, we
take it for granted.We are never satisfied. I, myself belong to this
catagory . I tried catching these colors and keeping it for myself,
hiding it from the world. I didnot want any other living being to
see these. I was afraid i would loose it.
I was already addicted to it from the
very first time i encountered it. I searched for different reasons to
see these . I couldnot hold myself from telling it that , i was
falling into it. It understood me, smiled at me , gave me a hope. Future is unpredictable , i don't even
want to think about it. Past had faded away like those sand castles
flushed by the sea water. I live for now. I am glad i still can see it. Thank you !
